It's been a thoughtful kind of weekend for me here.
My good friend's daughter graduated from high school and so we went to her party yesterday. It was a small family affair.
Michael & I made some lavender tea cookies to take. Aren't they pretty! See the little flecks of lavender and lemon peel. They were a hit!
At the party we watched videos of when this graduate was a toddler (after she left with her friends
so as not to embarrass her, lol). The videos were of her and her sister when she was just a little one toddling about the desert, singing and playing and picking wild flowers. It made me think about the kind of memories I want my kids to have of their childhoods... because before we know it they are grown.
Adult concerns have been getting to me lately. You know, money, business, home school, balancing it all, the usual. I am not the most patient Mama in the world and my little ones are going through a time when fighting is happening more than I enjoy. Lately I've found myself just wanting to get away! I feel a little... disconnected.
But, I can't let myself persist in that cloud. I have to remember these everyday concerns have a way of working themselves out and worry never helps. And this time with them, it's so short.
This morning before we even got dressed we puttered about the garden & made a tepee! I found these bamboo sticks by the side of the road and brought them home to stake the sunflowers. Instead we found another use for them.
And amazing how the fighting stopped... for a time. Mama needs to come back to this moment & enjoy! I don't feel out of the cloud just yet but I'm on my way.
Until next time...
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I can so associate with your feelings. . . I am dealing with similar things. Glad to see that I am among others trying to savour the good moments and finding an inner balance to handle it all.
ReplyDeleteYou are surely not alone. I think we all work on this.
DeleteI can really relate to the balancing act that is a constant in my life between the "adult" world and the "kid" world. Going between the two can be tricky.
ReplyDeleteI must say that the "kid" world seems to nourish and fill me up though.
It's so good to take the time to let that kid world fill you up. I've been working on this the past few days. Just take little pockets of time to really just be silly and have fun. I don't always let myself go there. So much Mama work to do! lol
DeleteI too am in a similar space! You know when you can just 'feel' a change coming? I think we all feel it and I'm (a bit frantically) trying to be "ready" for when it comes (mama's job), my husband is just trying to manage me(love him for that!), and the kids become more needy, bicker and play less peacefully than they normally do.(if that makes sense?) I feel like I'm preparing for a storm that I don't know when it's going to hit our routine and rhythm and send us flying.
ReplyDeleteBut in a way I know that we'll land on our feet! There is a reason for everything and change can bring good with it too!
Hope you find the same peaceful thoughts!
xoxo
~joey ~
I think you hit the nail on the head. Change seems to be brewing, something big! I like change, for the most part but it does tend to throw everything in a tizzy for a time. We shall see what happens. Whatever it is I sense it will be good. Thanks so much for your thoughts, as always.
DeleteI could have written this myself. Adult life is taking over and I am not the Mother I want to be right now, which of course makes me more frustrated and more stressed. I know their behavior is directly related to me, and yet, I don't know the path to take to fix it.
ReplyDeleteHere is hoping we all find our way! I love the picture of them at the end, it melts my heart!
It can be so challenging, this Mama thing. I love it but it's challenging and it's my biggest teacher right now. I think presence is the answer. Be here now, right? I've been immersing myself in kid fun here and there. Just taking little pockets of time to have silly fun with them and I realized I need to do that much more than I do. Because we all know what happens with "all work and no play...", lol. I know you will find your path. Sending love to you.
DeleteYour life always seems so magical on your blog and then, at the same time, you post these beautiful, very real, ordinary moments and internal reflections. How I appreciate the myriad glimpses you so graciously share with us as total strangers. Thank you! AND, I think I might try out that tasty tea cookie recipe today! As always, thank you for sharing :)
ReplyDeleteIt's funny. I love to hear that my life seems magical to you. My blog is such a wonderful way to see the beauty and magic in my life but it surely doesn't seem so magical day to day. We have our moments. I like to try and balance showing those beautiful moments & also write about the not so beautiful, or the struggles we all go through. Thank you for reading. And let me know how you like the cookies!
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